Summer is over....

It has been a very long summer holiday and finally everyone will be back to school and work again as usual. I did not do much this summer. We were mainly at home. Went to couple of friends house for dinner, BBQ and social gathering. Other than that nothing special really happened this summer.

I am finally starting with my Graphic Designer course this coming Monday and I am so looking forward to it. It felt good to finally be back to school again. Staying at home this summer for many months and doing nothing is really making me nuts. I felt so lost and trapped, I felt like I cannot go anywhere and everyday is just the same.
Thank god that I have 3 wonderful loving and caring children.

Elrener finally finishes her college and will start university in January and as for now she is working full time for a telecom company. She is such a responsible, sweet, caring and loving daughter.

Vel finally is interested to go back to school again with very high motivation to study but this time with different courses.I am so happy for her. She changes to be very much happier and social girl again. She is so much in love right now and I am happy to see her happy. No matter what blood is thicker than water and nothing can stop me from loving her as my daughter.

My last baby boy, Gabriel will start in Primary 2 in 2 weeks. ( Time flies...)He is with me day and night. Comes cudding and kissing me all the time. I gave him all the attention and love he needed.

I love all my 3 children till death do us part.

There are so many people who also comes and go in my life during the past years and months. One very special friend that have left me for a year now. I do miss her alot and I think of her most of the time especially when I am alone. I miss chatting with her like we used to. We wrote email to each other almost everyday as we are so far apart. Even though I get to see her again back in 2009 only for a short while when I came back to Singapore and I didn't know that it will be my last view of her. I still couldn't believe it that she is gone forever. At times when I felt down especially in a moment like this, I wish she were there to listen to me like she used to and gave me the womenly support that I needed. My dear friend Mel, I know you are happy somewhere out there and I always think of you and you have a very special place in my heart forever.

In a moment like this, I just want to be close to my friends and family. Someone that I can talk to and laugh with together. That is one thing I have missed being an expat for many many years living in a foreign country. I am not here and neither am I there. Home is always where your heart is. I know that I have to make it happen by myself someday being able to pay for the flight for me and my children for holiday, travelling back to my home town at least once in every year with the children like most all other expat could do it and no one can make it happen except myself. I have my aim and I will focus to fullfilled that. I want to spent the last few years where my parents are able to see me and my kids every year. They are old and I want to spent time with them so much I could. Gabriel hardly know his grandfather and granmother. He cannot even say the word nenek and yayi. He forgot... It is me that have to make it happen..

Ainy - Elerner - Veldiner - Gabriel