My new life begin when I move to this little city... after my separation.

After almost one year of completely away from blogging , I finally decided to come back again today. This time, I have a whole new set of life ahead of me. My marriage for 18 years has reached the point where we both finally decided to walk our separate ways. In the beginning, I was unsure, unsecured, scared, sad, angry and all of those mixed feelings that I could not somehow describe in words. Part of me would like to start afresh and move on as it is useless to continue what we had before since we have tried and it never seems to solves but the other part of me are telling me to keep trying again. I was very unhappy in this marriage and I have end up being quiet, staring quietly in the empty space most of the time and not expressing myself so much to him anymore. That was where I know I have drifted apart more and more. He still plays a very important part of my life at that time. He is still the father to our children and even the separation was sad but we know deep down inside we still care for each other. We never express exactly what we feel but we moved on. The pain goes on but I know it will go away someday.


Now that we shared the custody of our son, we remain friends which was easy. I never thought that being open and stay connected after a divorce was even possible but it has been so far. We talked whenever it's necessary and socially we still meet casually on a friendly terms.


After my separations in June 2015, I moved to a very small city in Örebro. The reason I moved here was to sort things out in my life and stay with my eldest daughter Ellie and her boyfriend for the time being until I know where to move to when I had my mind clear. My intention was never to stay in this small city for long. I started applying for jobs outside of this small city and also different jobs abroad. I was also offered an International Sales Manager job in Asia through a friend of mine who had recommended me to join their organisation. Part of me felt very excited as I will be independent again and be able to move on with my life abroad and start afresh. I started the process of doing my research and documentation of living abroad and I talked to my ex about our son. I wanted to bring him along as he is only 12 years old and I cannot leave him behind and not being  able to see him months after months. I felt at that time, I just wanted to leave Sweden and never come back again as there is no reason to be here anymore. I thought even if my son decided to stay here with his father, he could come and visit me wherever I am when by then when he is free form school.I know and was certain that his father will take very good care of him with or without me around.

Somehow in between the career searching and trying to sort my life in order again, I have met a man whom I cannot believe that I can be truly and deeply in love again. I was not looking to start any relationship at that time especially after my separation with the man I have been together with for 18 years have just ended. The first time when we met casually, I was not even least interested in him. I even thought of running away and pretending that I am not Ainy the girl that he was supposed to meet that day. On the day of our date, he walked towards me with a big smile on his face and was limping. The thoughts came rushing through my head with hundreds of questions and uncertainty.

Is he handicap?

Why is he limping?

What happened if he is mentally sick and psycho?

What an ugly t shirt he's wearing?

I even ask myself the question, "what was I thinking to even agree to meet this guy when he had this long hair with a very small tiny pony tail which looks like a hamster tail.


While questions were rushing in my head, he drew nearer and nearer. I decided to stay still and be polite instead. I convinced myself to stay calm and just go for a drink and if he is actually sick or psycho, I will politely excuse myself and leave.

We sat and talk and he is in fact a nice person whom have ended up in an accident and is still in his recovery process. I do felt sorry for him, and I can never judge a person by their look. Anyway at that time, I still wasn't attracted to him at all but that does not make him a bad person.


After that date, I thought it was over as I have never plan to meet him again. Somehow he keep asking me out day after day even when I gave so many reasons for not being able to see him. I think his persistent of inviting me out and not giving up the rejection each time, have made him a winner. He kept asking if I would like to see him again, and invited me out for short lunch instead since I always decline the dinner. I finally agreed to meet him again for a short lunch.. Then our second lunch date become a third lunch date and the third lunch date became fourth lunch date and so on....


My daughter suspected I have started seeing someone now but I kept telling her that I am only meeting a friend for lunch. It was actually a friend at that time. One day, while I was walking to town to meet up with this guy for a short coffee, I met my daughter and her be knew that I do not know anyone in this little town and the daily lunches that I go to made her smile. Then boyfriend who was just walking towards their car. She walked towards me and asking me what and where I was going. As usual, I told her that I am meeting a friend for coffee. I never wanted her to see this man anyway because at that time " Nothing about him that actually have attracted me" or neither have I wanted to introduce him to my children.Somehow they drove slowly and pass by exactly beside me just as I am approaching my date. I pretended not knowing my date and walk straight pass by him. It was a weird situation. I felt like "a child hiding my date from their parents". Somehow this was the other way round and I am mother hiding my date from my daughter.

One day my son decided to take the train to Stockholm and stay at his dad over the weekend. That was where he invited me over to his home so we could somehow probably cook together and have some nice home cook dinner and some drink together. I agreed upon that after seeing him and he had shown me his gentleman side. We went out to buy food together and head to his house straight. Everything went well until, he just left me sitting alone and went to sleep when he got tired that night. He had shown me the room on the upper floor which he had prepared for me to sleep in before that. I felt that this must be a weirdo guy as how can a person just go to sleep and left a guest sitting all alone. I was so pissed off at first. The next day, I got up, showered and left back home. He apologized for what happened. I never thought I ever want to meet this weird guy ever again. Again he never stop writing to me lunches for couples of weeks, I  started to have a very little feelings for him. He is such a nice guy after all. Wand insisted that we meet for lunch again and again. I decided to give him a second chance. After that few e both never even initiate to start kissing or sleep together all these while and with that, I respected him more and more. One day we decided to meet for a short coffee and he told me a little secret and that he thought I would have run away after hearing it but instead I stayed on and says it's fine and I understand as everyone has their past. That's probably how our feelings develop further for each other.



Again he arranged another week of sleep over and I agreed upon it since my son is away at his father. That night was beautiful. Everything went well. I liked him more and more and we kiss for the very first time. I never felt closer to him and could've been feeling that I would someday be falling in love again. We woke up in the morning and he prepared nice tasty BBQ ribs for our late brunch. We sat under the sun and we just hold hands and talk all afternoon. That night, we slept together and we know we are starting our relationship as a couple with the mutual feeling that we both had with each other finally.

 This is a small little things that he would do to surprise me every now and then. I woke up and head to the balcony for my first cigarette and saw a small note on it.

He also bought me bouquet of flowers every now and then. In fact it became too often that I have to asked him to stop. 

Short hairstyle for 2015

Every since my daughter took her hairdresser course, she has been successfully doing my hair which I really appreciate it very much. It has been years since I actually care about going to a salon to cut or coloured my hair. I usually trim or colour the hair myself for the past few years.

After I get back to Sweden this summer, she had booked time for me to go to her school where she took her course and have my hair nicely trimmed to the short length I have always wanted to.

This is where the classroom where the course is conducted every day. It is is Nacka, Sweden. Very nice classroom and very well equipt. Recommended anyone who wanted to take up the hairstyling course to apply there. Some days, they had mannequin  head to work with and someday they will bring in a model who will come in to work on the hairstyle. So that day it was me, she had to work with.

I have requested for a short bob hairstyle. Her teacher a young and cool trendy lady was guiding her throughout the way of how it is supposed to be done. She is lucky to have such a nice teacher.

I really like the end result. It is simple, short and so much easy to handle now. Before I had a long hair for several years and I felt that the changes made me feel fresh and different.

The 3rd time of cutting shorter in one month. I take stages to cut my hair short this time round. The 4th time of trimming more will be in 2 weeks, even shorter :)

It is quite a lot of hair has been cut away but I am very happy. Next Monday I will go into her work salon where she works every day after her school to have my hair coloured by her. Cool, when my daughter can now do my hair and the best part is, everyone have to pay for the service or products used but I get it for free as I am her mother and mother don't pay. It is such a privilege.

Will update after the colour on Monday :)

Weekend in Örebro, Sweden

After coming back to Sweden this summer and staying with my younger daughter Vel, my eldest daughter, El invited us to stay a few days in Örebro with her.  Since Ellie's boyfriend is staying in Stockholm weekdays, he offered us to go back with him to Örebro in his car. 

The weekend in örebro was indeed very nice, fun and relaxing. 

We were lucky on Saturday as the weather was very sunny and nice. We woke up have breakfast and decided to take a walk. 

Ellie and her boyfriend are living right in the middle of the city with nice surrounding.

Right in front of her house there is a big park wth several outdoor restaurants, cafes, and plenty of beautiful growing colourful spring flowers.

While walking along the water, I spotted several big beautiful houses.

Gabriel and sis El :)

Those colourful flowers just blooming.

I love these nicely shaped sculpture trees. They are so beautiful.

In the evening, we decided to barbeque since the weather is shining and its a clear blue sky.

This sweet couple went to get all the meat, etc and we invited Emil's mom and brother to join us.

This is Emil's mom. Really like her and we click the first time we met. She is very friendly, easy to be with and we laugh a lot that night. 

As the evening gets, it was a little bit chill to be sitting long outdoor. Emil's took his winter jacket for Gabriel as it started to be a bit cold.

We went inside the house after our dinner and Emil's younger brother Denise, who had a fantastic voice of a solid strong vocal, sang for us some songs of his choice. It was amazing to hear his voice.

Then came the 2 brothers showing off their golf movement. 

It was a lovely weekend in Örebro and we will go there again next time together with Vel and her boyfriend too.

Summer in Stockholm

The past few weeks staying at my daughter's and her sambo apartment was nice. It has been lesser stressful after being here. Love the surrounding area of this place too. Peter and I took our walk an hour or more a day,depending on the weather. I am waiting for a nice sunny weather one day before we could do some bbq.

 Did Lasagne one day for the family. We had a nice simple lifestyle and being home doing simple things like this would be more than happy.

Living and Moving abroad

I don't know if I could ever considered that is my home. My first move away from my birth hometown was when I was 23 years old. Then few years later it just kept going and it doesn't seem to stop.

A few days ago we had our15th years of wedding Anniversary so, I begin, to summarize, where we both have lived together in the world.

Singapore x1

Sweden: Stockholm x4, Borlange x1, Arvika x2

Ireland: Dublin x1

Spain: Riveria x1 Fuengirola x1

Egypt: New Cairo City x1

It was a blessing in disguise to have left Egypt at the right time just when it was during the revolution. Back to Sweden again after being in Egypt. We stayed there for a couple of years again before we decided to move again. This time we ending up in London. Honestly, we love it here. London is a place where you can live comfortably if you have the money. Housing is very expensive. Food... they are very reasonably cheap. Shopping.. varies, you can choose from the high end to the very cheap. Many nice cosy pubs etc.
Anyway back to where we are now.....

United Kingdom: London x1

We have changed 13 different addresses

We have lived in 6 different countries

3 different continents

Does it stop here? 

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No, it doesn't and it will not stop here. It will continue.....

There will be another surprise again coming in this blog posting as to where we will be ending up.

Cold November Update

I know I have not been able to keep updating my blog for a long while now. London has kept me busy ,':) While on the other hand I am still in love with this place for every minute. Not a second I am doubtful about my move this time.

Over these past few months lot of things have changed. First and foremost, I have finally quit smoking for good. It has been 9 successful months without a single problem. I started going to the gym for a real workout during those period too without fail unless I am really sick. So 5 days a week I never fail to be there at the gym. It is so convenient to have full equipt gym at our house.

I do go for a swim too someday. Usually I will swim with my son for 20 to 25 laps each time. But lately it has been cold, I kind of skip my swimming that often even it is an indoor pool with 

sauna, jacuzzi and a steam room. The jacuzzi and steam room could be one of my favourite to just sit down relax after the gym.

 My son is enjoying his school here which makes it easier for me as a parents to see your child loves the school. Its a small Swedish International school here in Barnes near to where we live now.

 On the other hand my 2 daughters, came to visit us here in London frequently each time they are free. It is not far to fly from Sweden to London. This is one of the roof top terrace in the estate where we live in. My daughter use to take a walk and we sit here during the summer.

One of the nice place to see is Richmond. It is very near to where we live. It is full of restaurants, cafe shops along the river Thames.  My husband loves to take us for a long walk to different places and we would later find a nice cafe where we would sit and have some coffee and dessert. This photo was taken during the summer. Vel was here with us for almost 2 months.

Another lovely place we been to for our long walk is in the High Park in Kensington. It has a beautiful atmosphere with different types of boat paddling, people sitting under the sun and do a picnic. Outdoor restaurants around that area are usually full and packed with of people.

So here is my happy daughter Vel and my son Gabriel. 

 My eldest daughter Ellie came later in the summer with her boyfriend. Emil loves London too. He and Ellie had made a plan that they both will be moving here to London once Ellie finishes her university in Sweden. I will be a very happy mom again once everyone moves here. Vel and her boyfriend Krille, has also been talking about moving here.
Here we are in Richmond, having a glass of cold drinks after our long walk by the river Thames.

 As usual London is known for its wet day. It can come rain all of a sudden. Here we are sitting and suddenly a heavy downpour for a few minutes. The staffs in the pub came out with umbrella and distributed it to people who are sitting outside. Cool.... :)

 This was taken in Portobello Market. One thing I love about London is that you can find market everywhere. I love going to these market as it is usually full of life and plenty of different kind of good food at the stand. Here is my lovely daughter and her boyfriend Emil.

 We took a long drive to Brighton Pier. It is one of the famous tourist place in England. The weather has been fantastic that day and we sat at the long stoney beach. Brighton would be one of my recommendation for anyone visiting England especially during the summer. It is such a lovely place and full of live.

This came to the late summer when Vel's boyfriend is here for a week before they both flew back to Stockholm. I took them for a walk at Barnes pond. Its a lovely small town around the area where we live. Gabriel is so fond of Krille, so he is always tagging him wherever Krille and Vel go. 

It was a lovely summer with my family and I am looking forward to Xmas this year where all of them will be coming again to celebrate xmas and new year here in London with us.

Family in Singapore.

Had a little chat with my sister in law today and she is staying at the Pan pacific Suite Beach Hotel over the weekend. My parents came over to the hotel for a visit. Below are my lovely parents together with my niece and nephew.

My Niece and nephew celebrated their birthday with their parents and grandparents.

Happy bday to Sarah who turn 8 yrs old and Izat 12 yrs old.