Memories of my Best Friend....... Maznah Sulaiman whom I called "Mel"

MY LAST MESSAGE TO MY BEST FRIEND..... MAY YOUR SOUL REST IN PEACE, I pray for your happiness after life. You going be miss so much and you have a place in my heart forever somehow.... somewhere....

Never knew I felt that I could be feeling so hurt like this. I realized you're gone forever.

This link song below is especially for you.................
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FqjEL_bpmFg

(We took this photo together in a studio during our younger days one day)

I could not even believed or want to believe,,, when I heard the news today that she is gone forever!!!!!

We had so many of our young memories together. We have been through  so many ups and down together but nothing have ever seperate us apart.  We drifted apart when I left Singapore but we are very much in contact through email, sms and phone call often.(Never miss to update what happen in our life)
It touches me so deep down inside to lose someone whom been so close to me after all these years and sharing many things together. I admit I cry and tears just came down each time I think of you, even though I try to hide them ....... No way I could hide them each time I  think about you, Mel.

I remember our youngest day, we spent so much time together. I remember one day when you got so drunk and I took care of you. I dragged you to the taxi and we checked in to a hotel together and you could hardly walk but I was there for you when you threw out and I put you to bed. There are thousand things which we did together, walk down by the beach at 3 in the morning sharing our life........ (Beautiful good friend memories together)
You slept at my house uncountable time. We just spent wee hrs till the sun rise talking and listening to music together.
We travelled through different places together. It is so rare what we have done together in the past as most people only does this only when they were young.
Somehow everything what we did together in the past change, we drifted apart as we get older, matured and our life have to move on. I have my new family and you had yours but through all these we still kept in contact.

I was very happy when I heard you got married again. I know you have gone through so much in life. YOu talked to me few months before you decided to settle down and how much it has change your life again. I encourage you to take the challange again. You did it!!!!.............. BUT AGAIN I heard the news someday that he left you not long after you shared your happiness together. His death was very sudden and you were so down and depress after that. I know you think of him every single night. You told me how much you miss him and how much you felt alone. I remember you mail me almost every week and even told me after exactly one year of his death anniversary. I know you were depress.................You mentioned that you felt so down and very lonely. I wish I was there for you.

We wanted to meet each other so much and we always said that we have so much to talk to each other when we are together again. That was a nice moment as we always talk about what we have done in the past and we could have a good big laugh about it when we meet again someday. I know you needed that company and someone close to share your life with but we never got the chance till you said GOOD BYE to me suddenly!!

When you had the stroke, I was shocked. Days after your stroke, you send me an sms everyday and kept me update even the message was more or less unreadable. It was jumble up and even after I confess with you, you didn't admit it as it is because of your messy phone that need to be change.

Mel, I had so much to say to you........ and we actually plan to meet again in April 2010 until you got a bad stroke few months before we will be able to meet. After that we never get any chance till you say EVEN Goodbye..

One thing for sure, I have to admit that you are part of my family and my life. I will always remember you and even a small part of you stays in me, it will be forever.

REST IN PEACE MY FRIEND....